I find this:http://homepages.ihug.co.nz/~sai/ind3.html
Bloody hell! I have tried. Believe me! I have tried! Then I stumble upon this the worst possible site. It feeds my addiction. It gives me hope that I am not the only one having such crazy thoughts. And the worst thing is all the articles are by scientists who have a paper trail of rational thought.
It is terrifying to feel so encouraged.
Something must be wrong. It's too easy.
Read the articles and drool. If you have the same thoughts as me , maybe you also are not crazy! If you don't then- who cares?
All this dishwashing and crochet hasn't been a total waste of time after all.